When I was 25 I looked like this... and I was told I was too big, chunky, and I was moo'd at if I ate cookies or chips. THIS is where my spirit was broken and I know that for a fact. I've never had "eating" issues but 12/16/1995 began my body image issues that have scarred me to this day.
It also noted: Some can let things roll of their back, because they know deep within, that they are accepted. Others, however, may bear deep emotional would from incident after incident of rejection, so any perceived lack of acceptance can transform their personalities into something ugly.
Finally - Even though God's love that is ultimately most important in anyone's life, a parent's love (or lack thereof) is perceived and felt first. Parental love is the first love a child experiences and the first love he(she) understands. In fact, parental love is often the means by which children actually open themselves to God's love and come to understand it early in life.
My parents did this well. I have always known that I was loved, and cared for, that they thought I was special and talented and loved to be with me. But somewhere in my first marriage - something in me broke. I allowed abuse into my life and it crushed me.
So, why am I writing this in Tristan's blog? I guess because I want him to know the good, bad and ugly of life. Of MY life. I want him to know that he is loved that God loves him. That I love him, that YOU love him. If my child doesn't feel loved or good enough then he has believed the lies of the enemy. I will NOT accept that.
I want Tristan to see himself not measured by the scale, by the size of his biceps or through the eyes of others. I want him to see himself the way that God sees him.
T, you will make mistakes, you will hurt and get hurt, you will feel less than and not enough but always, always look to God's Word to see your TRUE value, your TRUE worth and your TRUE beauty. Mommy struggles with vanity, with what others think and so rarely I go to God's Word and read who HE tells me that I AM... not who I want to be (because no matter how hard I try, I'm broken) - but He sees me blameless and wonderfully made. He doesn't care if I'm a size 4 or size 40, he wants me to care for myself (honor my temple) and live in this world putting others first.
It's really true... perspective is everything.
Isaiah 54:17: No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgement you shall condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteous is from Me, says the Lord.
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